In like, a few hours I'll be leaving Morocco. Oh noes.

Mcm inda benar I'm going back to Brunei for good. 

Today was pretty.. intense though. I seriously was not expecting people to cry. I didn't really talk to them casually due to a small little barrier language and our age difference. I didn't cry though, but my mom did lmao. 

( Not to sound all  )

Oh man, the kids: Zahra, Ivy, Desa, & Kiki. I'm going to miss them. The girls actually consider me as their big sister and they actually we're holding me, asking me, "Aww, why does Zeerah have to goooo?" ...Zahra thought I was going to stay in Indonesia, lolol.

When I was done hugging the aunties, Kiki actually went up to me and hugged me! I didn't expect him to hug me really. Didn't think he was into hugging people, lolol. And I looked at Desa and said, "Haha, You want a hug too?" and he gave me a hug. 

Yay, I likey hugs <3

I just had to keep telling them I'll be back for perhaps the X-Mas holidays, InsyaAllah.

I'm going to need to steal the pictures from my mom.

But anyways, the Indonesians are like family to me. I'm glad I got to know them.

I didn't get to say my good-byes to Mike since he left 2 days earlier than when I had to go. I got to meet up with Soulaiman and Ismail tadi. 

Urk, it's like, 12 already. I gotta wake up at 5am. :c Leaving the house around 7am. Yeaaah.

I'll try to go online when I'm at Doha or in Jakarta. Yep, yep! See you guys then!

 6 days left. 

Wowzer. o:

I just felt like blogging in, even though I'm friggin' tired atm. D':

Man, I can't believe I actually completed the outfit. For a first try on making a costume, I'm kinda proud of myself!

I made like, tons of shorts before working on the real fabric. It's better than the previous ones, it's just that.. I don't know how to make the front bit hold up properly, so I decided to use this corset I bought yesterday. Thank goodness! :'D

So, I might NOT be cosplaying as Nodame for Devmeet. I still need to sew some stuff and get some of the items (if I can), then I'm done!

No, I'm not telling you guys who it is. :B You're going to have to wait and see.

...God I like working under such a limited time. >.> What is wrong with me. Lmao.

IN OTHER NEWS, I STILL HAVEN'T FINISHED PACKING. AREN'T I AWESOME? :'D

( Our flight will be on.. )

Bleh, so my room looks so plain without my posters. :c I started packing a bit today. When I came across two plastic bags of magazines, I just remembered

"Oh man, I can't bring this back with me!"

So right now I'm ripping out pages from tons of magazines. :'D OH JOY!

I managed to find folders to arrange them: Men, Women, Children, Stuffs, Nature, and Scenery. ...Apparently I don't have a lot of folders lol.

SOB, and I made my room messier. ;__; Bags, magazines, clothes, and etc all over the place. Yaaay.


Btw! I found out that my Mini Iphone wasn't working. Booo. >:C So dad had to replace it with another one.

Only.. this was PINK and it was a way CHEAPER ver of the one I had before. You can totally tell by the way it looks-

POURQUOIIII?!?!

Even the bloody camera sucks! >:C GRR.

Well, good thing about it is that I can install .jar into it. But a bad thing is that.. since it's a clone phone, I don't know which "phone" to pick when downloading a .jar . Hahaha. D': They have some .jar files in it, but it's in chinese. Sob. ;O;


I wanted to animate today.. but for some reason, I just can't. =/ DAMN IT.
 

Anyways, I gotta go. More ripping pages. Woo.

 AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!

*clears throat*

I got confirmation that my dad agrees that I'll be studying in IGS.

SO, I'll be coming to Brunei probably around the 10th of July or something like that.

Kinda sucks that IGS doesn't have a degree program, meh. Ah well.

GUESS I'LL MAKE IT FOR DEVMEET AFTER ALL. BWAHAHAHA! :'D

...Don't know if I'll cosplay though. :B

YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW PSYCHED I AM! WOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Ah man, how am I going to tell my friends? Lolol.

 
It's so weird how I'm able to finish something in such a small amount of time, but when I have plenty of time, I barely do anything. Lmaooo. :B CRUNCHY TIEM.

The pic above is not the actual piece for the artbook. Too lazy to screenshot it atm, so there's a teaser. Lol.

GOD, these past few weeks I've been receiving calls from some stranger. =/ This person is seriously jobless. He goes on calling with different numbers. I have to hang up every time and it doesn't bug me as much as before, but it's still annoying. >.>
 

 Ah man, this sucks.

Apparently a girl I know over here has applied to the same uni as I wanted and got accepted. She applied through her school by UCAS. 

I knew UCAS would haunt me again. I've told my parents countless of times about it, and now it's getting in their head that it's the ONLY way to apply through uni in the UK. Mom gonna ask Mr. Sara if he could pay that freaking 16 pounds to UCAS. Mom says that chances are that didn't get accepted. I can accept that plg.

But.. What does this mean for me? :c

I mean, it's not the end of the world, but what am I going to do now? I've been staying at home like a lifeless zombie. Future rotten away like damn. =/ I only started painting this Feb, but I still feel like there's nothing left for me to do here apart from that. 

Klau balik ke Brunei, apa? Mom said either I go to Nini's college/MTSSR and do painting commission or something animation-related, but I don't think I'm good enough. Sure, I'm good, but not good enough. If y'know what I mean.

I wonder if I try apply to US and see if I get accepted lolol.

YAAAAY MY HEAD HURTS! I DON'T FEEL LIKE TYPING ANYMOARRRR OF THISSSS JUBURRRR! :'D

This is the painting I'm currently working on. ..ON CANVAS. /yatta Orz, the colours reminds me of Moroccan paintings. Lmao.
 

This week's painting.  

I missed one day of painting class because I had diarrhea for three days. =/

But for one day, I managed to get the background, the hat, and a bit of mom's hair. Wooo. o3o

ALSO:

Preview of my Mother's Day flash.

JUST WHAT IS GOING ON?! D:

Lmao, I've gotten most of it done actually. I'm just waiting lines from Fry, try to sync it up and I'm done!

Speaking on syncing up the audio, there seems to be something wrong with my Flash. =/ The first audio I put in plays fine, but the other audio lines seems to be out of sync. They're played way earlier than what I originally placed them in my timeline, which is really weird. =/ This is the first time it happened to me and it's really driving me nuts >:C

 I took shortcuts in the animation, so meh. D': You can't blame me though because it took me uh.. a few days ago to actually think of this. :c

Plus, I haven't been able to go out, so my mom can't complain now that she hasn't received a gift. >:C !

This week's WIP of my parents. o: 

Too lazy to mention anything else lmao.

At least I got a free cute tajine pot! 8D

( I've been working on a piece for the artbook. )

Oh yeah! Dad brought in a PC the other day. He hasn't hooked it up though since we've all got laptops. Lol, but like, I saw the LCD monitor just in front of my door, and I was thinking "Hmmm, maybe I should try hook it up." Tried it out and tada! I've got two screens to look at. Wheeeee. Now I can watch drama on the other monitor. Lmao.

I ran into problems earlier (probably why you guys heard me going nuts over the monitors) when I tried fixing the screen resolution due to the monitor being hard to read, but the external monitor won't follow the same as my laptop screen. =/  It would either be one monitor with all the programs while the other one was just my wallpaper OR  one monitor would have my start bar with all the programs whilst the other has all my programs opened up OR i just end up with one monitor again.

Really stupid of me really. Reaally. (See how many times I had to repeat that word?) I just began wondering "If it's able to show for presentations... projectors... oh yeah that menu! *checks* ... projector & external display!! /facepalm!!" I got my option box opened and there it was! "Mirror your main default screen BLA DE BLA BLA BLA" bullcrud. >.>

Overall, I can't change the resolution without affecting it as a whole. =/ Ah well. Like I mentioned before, just watch drama, videos or whatever on it. XD Useful for drawing actually since the colour of the screen isn't the same as my laptop (laptop is duller apparently).

...for 5 seconds on the table. Lmaooooo.

Oh god, the BBQ party was really fun guys, I had a blast. :B

Quote for today yo.

Miss. Hanane: You look very different. 

Dunia: Yes! I have to say she looks around... 23 years old.

Zee: 23..? D: Maybe I should stop dressing like this then. Haha.

Dunia: But it's nice!

Zee: Thaaaaaaanks. 8D

Miss. Hanane: Maybe you want to get married soon. Hahaha.

Zee: No Miss! It's not me who wants to get married soon, it's my mother wants ME to get married soon. Haha.

Ismail: HUH?! Is it true Naz?!

Miss. Hanane: Haha, I think your mother needs Ismail's approval before you do-

LOLLLL there's Moroccan door and window in RC! XDD Wth, I wasn't expecting that new change in RC. Lots of new changes o: 

 I started jogging this week. The reason why I wanted to is because I've always wanted to get fit, but never bothered and also that I know my stamina is pretty bad. :c Plus, why waste the beautiful backyard? Hurrr.

So, my method is this: everyday I jog, add another 5 laps to it  and then take small breaks uh.. yeah.

e.g. 10 laps = every 2 breaks, then take break. Next day: 15 laps = every 3 laps, take break. ect.

So far, I've done 20 laps in a day. I was supposed to do 25 laps today, but my sore legs didn't want me to torture it anymore, so I just did 12 laps today. Orz.

I'm really in bad shape, aren't I? I bet the method is pretty bad as well. =/ Bleh, but it really must be helping if my legs are all sore and stuff, right? I think I'm just going to do jogging during the weekdays and take breaks during weekends. Yep.

SOOO like I torrented VOICE and finished watching them today. Orz, every episode made me cryyyyy. D': Haha, and the "romance" bit is so suspend (sp?)!

Anyways, I loved the silly bits in the series. They really made me lol. I loved the emotions when Daiki was all, "But that means that we'll never be able to look at the sun to sneeze! I feel like I'm living life at a disadvantage!" Hahaha. Mannn.

Orz, so like dad called up Mr. Sara and still no news from the university. I'm really starting to feel like they didn't accept me. I started checking out The One Academy and all. I was kinda ":c" when they were offering only Diploma, but when I checked the International studies or whatever, I read you can continue your studies somewhere else like.. the US or UK! AND AND THEY HAD THIS UNI THAT I CONSIDERED BUT COULDN'T DUE TO MY LACK OF A'LEVELS - University of Hertfordshire! I remember watching a student's final year animation on DA and that person happened to study there. SO IM LIEK YOOOO I VANT TOA NAOOO.

I can apply TOA!  You just need 3 O'levels or equivalent. AND HAY, MY AMERICAN HIGH SCHOOL DIPLOMA TOTALLY MAKES PASS IT YO! Lol wth. Orz, but applying you gotta make deposit. o3o.. Gotta talk this out with my parents.

If my assumptions are correct that Uni of Westminster does not accept me, TOA is another way to gooo~ O: Unless I get sent to a country with good animation schools- But anyways, I just heard from one of my friends in UK that you get notified about being accepted or not around July, but he's in Ireland so idk. :c

April 9, 2009 Entry.

 So, my cousins left yesterday. It was really nice having them around. 8D Fun karaoke-ing most of the time lah. Haha, sorry we didn't karaoke the night before you guys left, I thought you guys were tired. D':

I started a new painting today. It's a portrait and I'm getting the hang of it. It's not that hard to do now. I just gotta know the structure of the head, where the bone is so to know where to put the shadows & highlights.

The one I was struggling with today were the pupils. Freaking pupils. =/ I loved how the eyes turned out though. I can't help but thank Miss Pat for helping out so far. You're awesome. :'D To be honest, I'm getting tired of doing Moroccan paintings lolol, but it's

The boss' wife asked me to do a painting for them and she'll pay for it. O: !! Don't really know how much I'll be charging. Lmao.

TODAY'S ENTRY!

I couldn't post up the entry for some reason, but luckily it saved the draft. Ajdakejqlewk.

ANYWAYS, GOD. I just realized.. this person I know, Rina-chan, actually voice acted in Luminous Arc 2 and AWAY Shuffle Dungeon. Well, I never got around to play Luminous Arc 2 yet, but she voiced as Karen and Elicia. Really glad all her hard work is paying off! 8D I kinda went "WUUUUUUT" when I realized it was her (I was youtube-ing randomly lol). But yessss, good for her. :3

I've been having nothing but motivation to do something creative, but I can't seem to do anything to like.. y'know, get rid of it. XD

I've already done 3 sketches for the FSOY thread and fixed up my yellow shirt for Wanda (it was too big and made me look fat =/ ). I want to actually sew something. D': I got munnies from my aunt & cousin and it'll help me greatly on getting those fabric I needed. I found like, 2 shops in Sale which sold materials for like 15 Dh (B$3 GUYSSSS) for a meter. THAT'S CHEAP YO! Palui how I wanted to buy something the day I actually got to go there and it closed like, 15 mins not being around there. Lazy shop keepers closing it down. >.> Lol.

I also want to paint something. =/ Liek, traditionally. For some reason, I'm more quicker drawing things by hand. o: I didn't know I could actually draw 15 panels or something for a comic/storyboard (idk mcm same thing lol). I think I really should start working on that piece for the artbook. 2 pieces right? Hrmmmm. o-o I think I'll do one fanart and one original. Just for the heck of it. Unless I feel like going both for original. 8D I SHALL SEE!

 Got back from Marrakech like, 2 hours ago. XD Ngalih actually. 

But it was fun. 8D We rode on camels and and we did henna. :'D Though mine looks like crap on one hand. =/ Anyways, we did much more, but those were really the highlight of the trip. XD

( There has been some arm-on-arm action. x: )

Ah, it's nice to have cousins around. :'D We actually like had a karaoke session 30 mins ago. It was fun. XD I really think I bond easily with people if it's like, not a huge crowd. o:

I think I realized something.. ever since I started sleeping in the living room, my feet has been freaking itchy non-stop! I've gotten like, 4 itchy bumps on my feet. ;w; It's not a nice thing. D': I think there's like, bugs biting me when I'm sleeping or something. *scratches* ARGGGGG!

[8] What was the last thing you ate today?
Ayam kicap with rice plus seafood soup. 8D

[11] What was the last thing you bought?
Uhm, one game to play bowling? o:
 

[18] What is the one thing that you wish for to come true?
To go to an animation school which will provide me with great advices and strategy to get to the top. PLZZZZZ. D':

 Wow, I don't know what all the fuss is about. Earth Hour was hella quick for me! o:

I didn't even play my DS. Haha. We were all too busy taking pictures and playing with shadows ah. o3o

MAN thank you Yasmina for the candle. I love the strawberry scent you gave along with it. Makes me want to eat it <3

Awesome time to be scary. YAAAAY. :'D

Earth Hour is great. WE SHOULD DO IT EVERYDAY :'D

I'll be having my aunt and two cousins + one of their bfs dropping by to Morocco on the 1st of April. Also the boss punya anak is coming by here soon as well, but not like I really care. Lmao. XD BUT YEAAAH, it's actually Onichan's mom & sister + bf, and Kaka Nisa coming over. Oh snap. D':

I hope I don't show my inner demon bad side during their stay. ...It's almost that time of the month and I already got pissed off at Ismail today for calling me crazy lmao. HONESTLY, who the hell says "You think I want to meet her? HAHAHA are you crazy or something?!" just by simply asking "Why? You want to meet her? :B". The way he expressed it sounded like I was retarded or something. =/ Srsly, we were just having a normal conversation and he calls me crazy out of the blue. SCREW YOU! >:C 

GOD, sorry. Went really off topic there. HAHAHA, I srsly needed to rant that out >.> I'm feeling very tempted to use vulgar words, but I shall not because I'm a Zee. 8'D

Anyways, they'll be taking over my room, so I gotta keep my room all tidied up. =/

NOOOOOO I HATE CLEANINGGGG ;W;

Esp since I mess it up right after- lol wth. I'm probably going to sleep in Reenah & Zaza's room since my cousin's bf will probably be sleeping in the tv room and my other cousin will probably sleep in Kaka's room. Idk really. =/ I'm the only one being kicked out of my room, but I'm fine with it. XD ...Just gotta clean my bloody room. Boooo. ;w; It's a good thing Uncle Hassan fixed my hanger otherwise it would've looked a lot worse. Fo' shizzle.

Sigh, I'm really stuck on my Ulala costume. The spy outfit is so everywhere >.> I don't get why Ulala cosplayers don't try the Super Ulala costume, it looks quite nice what. D': I tried wearing clothes similar to it and SERIOUSLY I cannot wear a costume that shows my belly. =/ Reasons why is because:

1) I don't look appealing showing it off. Mcm slut. D':
2) I don't have a flat stomach after eating. Lmao, reminds me of what I told my mom yesterday. "Hey, mom..?" "Hmm?" "I'm fat." Hahaha. 
3) I kinda screwed up my belly button when I was a kid. Let's just say I reduced its size by half. >.>

Anyways, yeah. I really want to go with the Woolen Wear costume. Though the colour won't be accurate, but hey, should be okay. :'c I need to get the white fluffy stuff, a pair of white headset, gloves, and probably white boots (use boot cover afterwards). I actually thought the outfit was a dress, but it turns out to be like, shorts, but it's a one-piece outfit though! It's odd how I actually came across with a thought to make the pattern following a cat suit. XD

I even need to buy new pairs of contact lens (not mainly for cosplay, I just really need them for special occasions o-o). Mom said it cost 350DH (B$ 70) arh Mega Mall. I keep passing by this specs shop near by to the painting studio, perhaps I should ask Hussein.

But arggggg, thing is that I'm BROKE.Bloody broke. Booooooo ;W; (lmao alliteration)

OKAY I BETTER GO. D':